Saturday, July 19, 2003

monsoons & memories
...last night i was awakened by the thundering sound of a storm. i love stormy nights and the refreshing smell of the rain. i wasn't even angry that i was missing out on much needed sleep time but found myself still and calm in the midst of the storm going on outside my window. i remembered growing up in phoenix where we experienced many monsoon storms. i remembered a friend in elementary school who unfortunately was born on a "stormy" night and so her mother named her stormy?? (her mom's name was bunny so i guess it wasn't that bad). i watched andy lay still in our bed except for every time the thunder would crash and i remembered when were dating, he lived at home with his mom & grandma, and they were all afraid of the storms--this was the scene...unplug all electronics, phones and wait in a safe place, shaking under a blanket, for the big tree in the front yard to be struck down by a big bolt of lightening. (for those of you who really know andy, or have at least been to a scary movie with him, understand that i'm not making fun of him, he just tends to be a "little" jumpier than the next guy!) i reflected on the way our boys feel the peace of the storms, in their childish ways i believe they feel the presence of Jesus and they just simply rest. i reflected on how i am calm when the storm is outside of my window but am terrified when there are real "storms". then as i lay still and quiet i heard God speak to me through every sound of crashing thunder--"remember I am here, I am powerful, I am not quiet, be still and hear Me, I will be your calm in the midst of the storms of life." i fell fast asleep in His arms.