Tuesday, August 10, 2004

ladies night out
...this evening i had the privilege of dining with 10 beautiful ladies. sorry tommy, i forgot to invite you, but we decided that if you are willing to dress up like a woman, you are welcome anytime! we sat in the Pope Room (a big round table with great acoustics) at Buca Di Peppo, laughed, ate, told stories, drank, learned from each other and about each other for over 3 hours. we are all so different: some pregnant, some not; some older, some younger; some single, some married, some shy, some outspoken; some church attenders, some not. and yet we are all the same because we love and believe in the living God. i learned new things about each person at the table tonight; fears, funny stories about our children, some things that are better left in the Pope Room (ex. how much weight we all gained during our pregnancies!), pasts & common new found threads among us and then i did it again...

if you didn't know me well, you might think i was rude, obnoxious & maybe even just nosy because lately i've been just blurting out tough questions, having no fear of what the answer might be. tonight i asked an innocent question, "why?" because i really wanted to know more, looking back i usually would have just let it go and wondered why later and not have risked getting any deeper with that person. at first i think i made this person a little uncomfortable but then she answered--and sadly the answer, although really honest, was not what i wanted to hear--she was not feeling connected in this community we call "Apex". reflecting on the past few times this has happen to me--i have come to realize that i am so tired of wanting to know the people in my community deeper and i am just doing it--i'm being brutally honest and expecting that of the people i'm in conversations with. i don't know if all this is making any sense (i had wine tonight) but i believe that we are all at a critical point in this journey together and we have to make a choice to risk a little and take our relationships to the next level--really share life together, our struggles, pains, happiness--don't be afraid to expose yourself or to ask for help and depend on the people who love you.

thanks to all of you for sharing your life with me~what should we do next time?