today
...i am so proud to be his wife, especially today. i wish i could tell you how he shows god's love to people who come in and out of his life everyday, especially today; how he preservers through rough circumstances when it would be easier to quit, especially today; how he comes home from a frustrating day and still brings joy to his children as they play, today. to my husband who loved deeply and got hurt badly, today. i love you.
"if you love deeply, you're going to get hurt badly. but it is still worth it."
c.s. lewis in shadowlands
hospital bills!!
...today the kind mail person delivered what is certainly not to be the last of the medical bills that we still owe for this last pregnancy and delivery! although, i was happy to see that this particular bill was $1,000 less than originally anticipated.
3 caesarian deliveries................$30,000 +
3 car seats..................................$350
3 health insurance premiums......$198/month
vasectomy...........priceless!!
6 weeks
...six weeks ago today our princess, ella brooke, joined our family as the luckiest little girl that ever lived. she has two adoring brothers, the older one who tells her how beautiful she is at least daily and will tell her of his future plans of playing with her as she learns new skills that he can hardly wait for her to achieve, the younger who must kiss his "baby sister brooke" a good 10 times a day and will inform you if you hold his sister that "it's not your baby, it's my baby!" the oldest man in her life, her daddy, fell in love with her the moment he saw her....and although she has no idea how blessed she is to have him as her daddy, she will soon learn that he is a rare and special daddy.
...six weeks have passed and mommy's days are slurring together, i am getting 2 hours of sleep at a time, unfinished laundry and dishes are piling high, my back aches, projects are incomplete , she wants to be held all the time and i have not one moment to myself in the day...
it is after midnight and i have laid my beautiful daughter down to sleep-she is peaceful and brings me complete joy! at the end of the day my favorite thing to do is to walk from room to room and see my family peacefully sleeping, say a prayer for each of them and allow God to remind me that all the struggles of being a mommy that each day brings are so completely worth every minute of it!
