i love to mountain bike because...the wild birds, atop the trees, sing me beautiful songs. i hear the orchestra of crickets stringing me a tune. i feel the quiet whisper of my Father's voice as the wind softly blows in my ears. it is the small things in Creation that i appreciate; the antelope off in the distance, the beautiful sculpted red rocks, the bank under the bridge that needs more rain, the tiny blue butterfly leading my way on the trail, the rabbit that stands still in his tracks with his eyes stuck on me but hoping i won't notice him, the many squirrels that run and hide out of the same instinctual fear as the rabbit, the fuzzy catepillars of all sizes that risk their life inching across the path. what a great way to start my day, wishing everyone a "good morning" along the way.
spring fever??...i have been really emotional/hormonal as of late. today was a good day, i have completed many tasks on my "to do" list, some spring cleaning, i got to play with my kids in the yard, hey i'm even blogging! my friends tell me i have spring fever--but i just took a family vacation to Disneyland last month and we leave in 3 days for a week long vacation to
Coronado Island with my parents, two sisters and their families. my mind is usually so busy with chores, kids, home schooling, baseball, meals, friends...then i'm
alone driving to meet a friend for lunch or riding my bike in the mountains and the feelings i try so hard to hide come rushing out. watching my mom suffer is really difficult. i want so desperately to take her pain away, dry her tears, find a cure, hear her laughter, watch her sleep peacefully. over the last few years, God has been showing me how to loose the control i thought i had and asking me to trust. although there are times that i am overwhelmed with sadness, i will trust Jesus.
